it`s really irritating to see how people are so uncomfortable with change. how they can`t accept people for who they change into be. it just goes to show you how completely messed up this world is.
i got a phone call last night. it was one of my "friends" telling me they talked to one of my best friends, and they`ve been discussing how my life has changed. how apparently "erika doesn`t even know who she is anymore".
you know it seems like since i`ve changed my life for the better; since i came back to Jesus, everyone and everything is trying to put me down and tell me "i`m a poser", that i don`t even know who i am anymore.
a comment was made that i went from prep to punk rocker to claiming to be a christian. you know what? i don`t claim to be a christian, i am a christian and i live it!
things changed a couple of months ago when i went back to church and was prophesied over. i knew then and there that it was time to make a change, and start living my life for Jesus the way he intended me to. i was tired of thinking "oh, if i do this, i know he`ll forgive me because he died for me!". it never hit me that he died because he loves me, and i should show my love for him by my actions and helping lead others to him.
since then i`ve drastically changed. i went from being in a band; a hardcore punk rocker; major band promoter; a rock & metal concert junkie; etc, to listening to pretty much nothing but Christian music. i read the bible every day. i pray every day, usually numerous times. i try and witness more. i`m in my church choir, i`m on our dance team called christian crusaders. people have told me that it`s amazing how i`ve changed, they say i don`t act the same anymore, that i don`t even look the same.
when i got filled with the holy spirit and spoke in tongues that made it open even wider. i have an amazing belief in our Lord, Jesus Christ, and i know that i can do all things through him because he strengthens me.
but you know what? it doesn`t make me mad that they`re saying this, because i know who i am. i know what i am. i`m content with who i am, and nothing they can say or do is going to stop me from becoming closer to my Lord, my God. and if they have such a big problem with be fixing my eye on my eternity, then they weren`t good friends to begin with. especially to sit and degrade someone who they claim to be best friends with.
i pray that the Lord helps me to lead them unto him, and that he gives me an even greater strength to overcome these situations when they pop-up, and let people be able to see that i`m not backing down or out any time soon.