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January 20th, 2008 • 7:29pm
i  cant believe he showed up at my friends appartment
during a huge birthday party and came to find 
he just showed up.
he didnt call me,
he just showed up.

he said that he missed me
and that he hated how we never saw eachother,
and he gave me a hug.

he spent time with me
and he said he wanted to spend more time with me.

im such a fucking girl.
: ]

and im so beyond happy right now.
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January 7th, 2008 • 11:37pm

 there is something about a pint of ice cream and a favorite record 
that really just cures the feeling of anything.

hes says hes liked me since freshman year but this boy, 
eh, this player, is not one to be believed but i kinda want to.
hes such a sweet heart and not to mention a looker,
but what the hell am i supposed to do if he doesnt call me

and if you are wondering no, it isnt yesterdays mystery.

this one is quite the little mystery though 
because we've been like this for a while.
the constant flirting and kisses.

fuck it.

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January 7th, 2008 • 2:32am
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January 7th, 2008 • 12:51am

 i wish i didnt fall so hard for people i dont even know.
hes so amazing.
terrible taste in music,
but who doesnt have that this day and age?

i want to be in love so badly.
i think i could be forcing myself to think i really like him,
then again its so genuine.
its the butterflies, the headrush, the honesty;
that makes me realize how long its been since ive had one of those things..

its not all atraction, attention, and things in common
because, well honestly,
hes a skater who doesnt call me often or text me often, and we dont have a 
thing in common except for drinking, drugs, and cigerettes.

its gets a little scary how almost perfect it could be when i tell you his name.
he goes by a different name than his real one and it just
happens to be the name i love to death.
and it scares me.

usually the guys i like have this certain...mold?
black hair, black clothes, certain music taste...blah blah blah.
but hes so different from what im usually fawning over.
and its weird when i talk to him, i get all nervous.
and litterally dont really know what to say.

hes a scorpio on libra cusp.
scorpios are the most firey of the water sign.
more direct about stuff and honest, 
but mysterious when the conversation turns about them.
and libras are my exact opposite and i seem to have
alot of people that are very close to me that are libras.


and the new years begins wit a bang!

twothousandeight will be amazing...
i mean the banner is gonna release a new album, as is this is hell, hopefully alkaline trio.
january:gallows, this is hell, cancer bats.


and a new tattoo on the way.

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August 1st, 2007 • 2:09pm
so im really supposed to be okay in seattle 
while hes deciding to stay in that godforsakenly amazing place? 
thats not really fair.
and i really wish that not everyone thought he was their best friend.
hes not.
hes mine and sams.

well, while everything spirals out of control,
i hope he is happy with this decision.
cause im fucking suffering with it.
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July 11th, 2007 • 2:11am
well, well, well.

the last weekend a bit of a blur, the days ran together.
recovering, slowly, so i can work tomorrow.
at seven pm. so late.

recently, ive been loathing a certain person from a small town in washington.
just because of the fact that i dont want them, but at the same time...
i do?
but of course i cant tell them that, it would get their hopes up.
also, no one can have them...
i wouldnt be okay with that...
cause im selfish?

i finally saw sam today.
its weird i think were seperating, but in a peaceful sort of way.
hopefully not.
i came in to contact with two past friends.
with the telephone.
one incoming, one outgoing.
outgoing, bad idea.

and i definatley miss last summer.
but not as much as i miss being restless.

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June 13th, 2007 • 9:49pm
it needs to be summer.
and i need to keep shit off my mind.
and i need matt to be here already.
and i just want to cry in my dads arms.
and i want my mom to still love him.
and i want to not care.
and i want to get my paycheck.
and spend all this shit away.
and i need to get a good nights sleep.
and i need my heart to stop hurting.
and i just need to breathe.

and i need to not sound like im in seventh grade anymore.
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June 12th, 2007 • 10:27pm
i really dont want to hear my dad cry anymore.
and i want my mom to come home.

god, how old am i, five?

i shouldnt care.
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June 11th, 2007 • 9:51pm

i really cant believe their doing this again.
again, they're getting divorced.
again, they are fighting.
i just want it to either happen, fianally.
or i want it to stop fucking coming up.

im sick of feeling like i should have feelings about this situation,
but i just fucking dont.
i dont care if they split or if they dont.
i just want to curl up with a boy.
a boy who makes me feel special, worth it.
but those boys dont exist.
ice cream is a good sub though.

well, id say im gonna go smoke a cigerette,
then im gonna keep watching degrassi.
after that, ill sleep, if i can.
maybe ill even figure out if i car.


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April 8th, 2007 • 1:29am
[ mood | aggravated ]

at the beginning he said he was an asshole.
i didnt believe him.
i heard how bad he fucked her over.
but i didnt think a thing of it.
i didnt get attached. i said love, but i didnt mean it.
then it was over.
i was hurt,
but i fucking lived.
i didnt get why everyone was so 
"broken up" about him all the time.
i thought it was fucking pathetic.
then i find out information of two other girlfriends.
HONESTLY, i can deal with that.
BUT, if the one of the others keep bothering me about it.
its gonna get annoying.
THEN, im fucking over it.
but of course, since hes a fucking drama queen,
and such a fucking asshole,
i keep getting drug into shit.
i dont fucking care about you,
i dont care you cheated on me,
i dont care you never loved me, cause i never loved you.

and PLUS,
you are not that amazing, youre a dick, youre terrible in bed, youre fat, youre ugly, you have no substance, youre shallow, and you are the biggest fucking manipulative, disgusting asshole i have EVER encountered and will ever encounter. you make me scared to ever come in contact with a boy that idolizes the same guy i do.
i hope you die so i can live my life in peace.
i mean FUCK you obsess my life from 102 miles away and i want NOTHING to do with you.
so tell your girls to leave me the fuck alone cause i got victimized and manipulated by you just as much as they did.

fuck you, josh sparks

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March 8th, 2007 • 9:26pm
[ mood | restless ]

my back hurts.

too much stress.

and more to come.

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March 7th, 2007 • 6:05pm
bored. bored. bored.

i want taco del mar.
i have drivers ed.

one year ago today vendetta red broke up.

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March 5th, 2007 • 8:20pm
[ mood | frustrated ]


so at rachels party alex and alix hooked up, even though alix is dating william.
for the record, i dislike cheaters. actually, i loathe them. but i understand my friends cheat. i dont like it, but i deal.
anyway...i wasnt planning on telling william at all, but today keeley asked me if i told william about alex and alix. i hadnt. but she said the he had said i told him. i dont talk to william. plus four interferences with this accusation:
1] i havent had my phone the whole weekend.
    which means i couldnt have called him.

2] i was nt at school in the early morning. we got there late.
   wouldnt have been able to talk to him there.

3] i dont have classes with him.

4] didnt talk to him on myspace.

and finally, i guess five reasons, i wouldnt do that. i just dont do that shit. i didnt when alex cheated on matt [my best friend]. i didnt tell when rachel cheated on matt. i just dont. so why would i do that now? even though i dont like alix and dont agree with anything that happened. i dont fuck with people's relationships or sex lives. its not my business.


PS what gain would i even get from that??

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March 4th, 2007 • 1:01pm
[ mood | drained ]

okay, i went to rachels party last night.
it was actually fun. but afterwards, so much drama. i feel for everyone and everything.
okay, well, not EVERYONE, but you know.  anyway, im so done with un-necessary drama. they are just drama hungry kids. they are kids. 

at least i made up with rachel and keeley. 
the only ones that kinda matter. i really dont care if i end up being friends or not with the other two.
they get on my nerves.

well, i should be getting my hair cut in a while. very soon.

ps. im getting a sickass camera for my birthday.
which means [bloodsoaked]photography will be up and running.


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March 3rd, 2007 • 4:38pm
this is just the worst fucking thing ever.

i am honest, and i want to die.
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March 1st, 2007 • 5:02pm
[ mood | crappy ]

its been a while.

well hello to everyone.

this will be a rant:
at the beginning of january i cannot begin to tell you how fucked up it was. so much stuff happened and it hit me out of nowhere. when i say nowhere, i mean NOWHERE. i mean, josh and i broke up for no goddamn reason, school, job, parents, grandma, matt getting sent away, im not gonna give details. but, i was in my own little world, none the less. and i made the mistake of not paying attention and snapping at people, my bad. after i got over everything all my friends were being so rude to me, and i didnt know why. once i found out what the HELL was up, i tried to tell them why i was 'rude' that week or whatever and also to tell them, that usually if your friend randomley fucking changes, there is probably something wrong. but those people are so self centered and to into themselves to even know i was upset. so, they are convincing other people to hate me for no god damn fucking reason. and they all go to my school, so lunch time is rediculously humiliating and i cant believe this!!! i mean friends that call themselves family, should forgive if you apologize and should also talk to you, right? or am i out of my fucking mind??

however, as i sit on the ave for two hours alone, wishing my taco del mar card was completely filled rather than having one empty spot, i realize that if they are THAT immature, then why should i hang out with them anyway?? 

but, on a lighter note, im getting over dumb grudges i had with pretty cool people and also meeting new faces. 

so the beginning of 2007, not the best. but hey! i get my liscence in august, three days before warped, so no worries.

and um, FUK THE IHC. ahahahahahahhahaahahahahaha. why did i fall for that last name?
there is nothing worse than falling for fake people again and again, and oh, again.

fool me once, shame on you [the eberhardts]
fool me twice, shame on me [kendra]
fool me three times, and im a fucking idiot [my 'family']

i think im gonna start a new one and completely lead it up to where i left off here.
ill let you know.

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May 3rd, 2006 • 1:15pm
[ mood | apathetic ]

okay. so i have realized that no one will ever love me. because all the guys in the world will fall for someone completely opposite of me and i will be lonely for the rest of my life. but i guess its okay as long as i have my alkaline trio cds to make me feel better, right??

i miss everyone and no one all at the same time. and i think i am done with this whole poor thing.
because, in case you haven't heard, Brand New sold out.
and i dont have a ticket.

how unfortuante for me.

i love brand new and they are one of the bands that i have to see before i die, and i cant go! the tickets sold out and now my life is so over. i'm gonna have to beg or something. i am showing up so early and making them cookies so maybe they'll give me a spot on their list or something. i have to be there.

27 days to alkaline trio however.

i need the new taking back sunday cd.

and i need to talk to Rae about our warped tour plans?? if they are happening??

and i need a job.

and i need a boyfriend.

and i need a hair cut.

and i need to re-dye my hair. because god know matt does a shitty job.

and i need...everything. i am so disatisfied right now. with everything.

"i'm gonna make damn sure that you wont every get to far from me."<-adam lazara. you know the gorgous.

blah blah blah. let me know if you can change any of this. preferably the Brand New thing. ugh.

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April 21st, 2006 • 8:09pm
[ mood | cheerful ]

oh my god oh my god.

that translates into after this tour
ALKALINE TRIO will be going back in to the studio.

i'm at my house with tyler.
we are the best.
so ha!


pretty much.

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April 16th, 2006 • 9:50pm
[ mood | i dont know ]

him: haven't talked to you in a while.
him: you said you would call last night.
me: i know...
me: i got distracted.
him: its fine.
him: how have you been?
me: eh. i've been alright. just chillin.
him: thats cool.
me: what about you?? how have you been??
him: shitty.
me: oh. i'm sorry. whats been up?
him: the past, the present.
him: do you miss him?
me: of course.
him: do you really?
me: yeah. i think about how much i miss him all the time. sometimes i cant shake it.
me: keeps me up at night.
him: he wouldve wanted you to sleep.
me: i know.
him: can i tell you something?
me: sure.
him: he...he told me everything...
me: what are you talking about??
him: you and him...he told me everything.
me: everything about what?
him: ...call me and i'll tell you.
me: nathan.
me: nathan!
him: call me!
me: gimme a second.

how fucking creepy.

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April 16th, 2006 • 2:01pm
[ mood | homeworkkkkk ]

so i have to do a paper on the african famine. i dont wanna. as usual.
i just bleh.
i hate my history teacher. hes racist and he hates me. the only reason he hates me is cause i asked him if he taught nikki sixx back in the day. he did. and since i said he was my idol he got all mean to me.
that's beside the point however.

so yesterday i prettied myself up for ryan♥ because he didnt bring tara.
then once he showed up he flirted with me.
then guess what, he tells matt that him and tara are back together.
back together??
for what the eighth time now??
i swear they brake up and get back together every two weeks.
fucking bullshit if you ask me.

so i tried to make him jealous by talking about this other guy i like.


he got hella uncomfortable.
it was funny.

oh yeah, yesterday i bought the
Calico System cd
and the new
Most Precious Blood cd.
i also got a song by
Nodes Of Ranveir
As Cities Burn.
pretty damned good if you ask me.

anyway, i really should get back to Africa.
so i'll see you kids later.

love like fangs

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This is a very long entry. [
April 15th, 2006 • 4:46pm
[ mood | just here. ]

yes yes yes.
i seem to have fallen off the face face of the earth.
if you knew why, you'd forgive me.

i've been so busy with so much stuff. catching up with old friends, making new ones, changing myself for the better.
life has definatly cheered up. its almost happy now.
if life is happy, ruby is happy.

i've actually doing pretty good in school.
i have 3 A's and a B.
then there is that F in history...
and that F in math[but i got that one up].

so in the past few months:
i've realized the music will collapse on its self.
i've been in love. twice.
i've turned 15.
i've forgotton about the past...for the most part.
i've decided i like taking pictures.
i started a band.
i found out alkaline trio comes here on MAY 30!
i've decided on my first tatoo[which i'll get in a year(hopefully)]
the saddest thing happened to me. sadder than a death in the family. sadder than anything:
much more to say on that topic...
i found out march 7. sobbed for ever.

[march 7 2006 8:46 p.m.]
so last night, they died. everything i lived for, everything i breathed for, everything that ever helped me, gone. i can't beleive their gone. so young. so meaningful. so everything. they meant the world to me. it's fucking impossible. those last words, they just can't be fucking true. this is seriously the end of me. nothing will ever be the same. it's like everything i lied for was a lie. i hope to god i don't wake up in the morning. why is everything falling to shit? fuck this. i'm fucking dying. this is retarted. i loved them. i worshiped them. they were/are gods to me. they are brilliant. they are lifesavers. happy fucking birthday to me. goodbye december 12, goodbye september 27, good bye bumbershoot, good bye the 12 other times i saw them. i praise those moments. speaking of which their last show ever is in a month. that was supposed to be my birthday party. i was gonna invite all my friends to come see my favorite band with me. not see them for the last time with me. i feel like part of me died and part of me did.

[that was a journal entry into my personal journal]

i know that sounded completely pathetic, but that's how i felt when i found out.
but with everything beautiful, there comes death.
April 8 however, was one of the best days and suckiest days of my life.
woke up at noon[the time i planned to be to el corazon]. got to elcorazon at 1. my mom didn't want me there alone, so she came and picked me up. i wanted to murder her for that, by the way. we went and picked everybody up and went to el corazon. no one was there, thank god. we were there at three. three hours later than i wanted to be there. eventually leif showed up and we chatted with him, jeff and levi. i almost started crying just talking to him. then i saw justin, you know the love of my life since like 6th grade. he was al cute, dressed in a suit and whatnot. these four girls behind us. god i hated them. they crowded us. we had seven people. they had four. it was barely even sprinkling and they crowed our little area to stay dry. they basically forced three of us to always be out of the group. so fucking annoying. two of the girls didn't even listen to them. didn't have tickets, nothing! they begged justin to get them in. he seemed reluctant, but he did it! i was so angry! those dumb bitches didn't care. finally vendetta red did sound check. i cried listening to it. at 7:15 they let us in.i took my rightful spot in the front and center. after, of course, i visited the merch table to get my belt buckle and also to say hello to the darling CHRISTINA. Raheem Shuclah came on. pretty catchy. Kane Hodder, amazing as usual. The Divorce, dancy. I enjoyed them, but half way through i realized how close it was until the thing i didn't want to beleive. As soon as The Divorce stopped, i started crying. i saw jacob on the side of the stage. waved. he waved back. sweet heart. i love him. then the vendetta red banner went up. i cried harder. Jeff saw me crying, handed me a bottle of water and a kiss on the forehead. still sobbing, they began. i started taking pictures too. through blurry eyes though. they opened with Silhouette Serenade, i beleive. i saw ben, waved at eachother, then i went back to crying. In the stairwell, i saw RAE and SARAH. i hadn't seen them in forever. did i mention joe was there? like the old bassist. yeah that was cool. i stopped crying around P.S. Love The Black. I noticed Zach hung from the pipes. i hadn't seen that since S.T.U.N./ Vendetta Red back in december of 2003. Then they played All Cried Out. gotta love the old songs. Then the glorious. the best song EVER. LIPSTICK TOURNIQUETS. right before leif located me in the crowd and blew me a kiss. i got on stage, ritually. and i stage dived. the last time i will ever be on stage for vendetta red. the last time i will hear lipstick tourniquets. the last time i stage dived/crowd surfed to them. i came off stage and found alex. the only other person who i knew listened to vr longer than me. our friendship was built on their music. and brought back together by their music, also. they played 25 songs i beleive. including ribcage menegrie and the long goodbye. i started crying during Por Vida and didn't stop until an hour after the show. i got the BTNATN vinyl[thank you christina], one of Justin's guitar strings[which while getting it cut my hand realy bad], and leif's guitar pick. i wanted to talk to zach, couldn't find him. Justin is still sneaky and ran away before i could catch his attention. i found jeff he gave me another kiss and bottle of water. i found leif and we hugged for a long time. he told me very nice things. he said i was the apple of his eye. he gave me the translation and the real meaning to that saying. he is possibly the nicest person i have ever met. i could barely keep myself up and walking. Domenico was there, no Matthew how ever. :[

thats bassically been it. i have nothing else to say for now. i hope you enjoyed my entry about the saddest day of my life.

now i will go to sams and see Ryan♥, but hes bringing tara. goodie.

xoxo ruby

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January 25th, 2006 • 10:36pm
[ mood | hopeful ]

who needs it?
i do.
but i dunno if he likes me.
i want him too

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January 22nd, 2006 • 10:22pm
[ mood | awake ]



i need a ___________.
i want to ___________.
i need the ___________ cd.
i need to chill with ________.
i need ___________ dollars.
i want my _________ sister.
i need to pass my _________ on monday.
i want to _______ somebody.

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January 17th, 2006 • 12:47am
since i haven't been on in for ever, i thought i'd type out a few things.
i am in love with It Dies Today's cover of Enjoy The Silence.
yeah. its fucking amazing. my Ipod, Sadie, is delivering quite well. she plays music that i want to hear, and she is doing a damn good job of it. she's cute and silver if you've never met her. she's most likely playing alkaline trio or every time i die and possibly singing along. haha.
other than that, my days have just been school friends ihop. the usual. i was sick monday and tuesday of last week and that was fun. i finished undone homework and stuff.tuesday i saw hostel. good movie after the first 25 minutes. all that is is sex and drugs. no rocknroll, sorry. but the rest is good. i went to school tiredly, wednesday, and thursday, i was like a brand new person. i guess. friday, i slept in and missed first period. that night i stayed matt stayed at my house and we watched salems lot. i love that movie. next day we went to Ians party and that was fun. lots of people there. me and sam almost died laughing so much and didn't fall asleep until 8:30. i fell asleep in the computer chair and it was so UNCOMFORTABLE. bleh. oh well.
next day was surprisingly and unfortunatley stressful.
we left the johns' house at maybe 12:50. and went to the ave. met up with jayson. sigh. for maybe five minutes. then we went to Ihop. we waited for mooter to come, but it ended up he couldn't. pfft. matts phone broke so he had to buy a new one. THEN we went to ians surprise party he already knew was happening. we get there and Taylor is there. he kissed me, kinda. then i had to leave.
i stayed at matts house and watched the L word. Sam, tyler, sarah, and allison showed up later and rewatched it. then the left to do e. o0o. fun for them. me and matt watched Night Of the Living Dead and joked and what not.
then i came home at 4:30. got bitched at by my dad. got in a fight about gauging my ears. ate dinner. and oli broke up with me. so i'm single. and ready to date. so know any single guys??????????
then i've been up sorting pictures, posters, and concert tickets. bleh. cant sleep.

oh anyone have a Depeche Mode cd i could borrow??
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January 1st, 2006 • 4:35pm
Guess what?

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[X] I think I'm ugly, even sometimes.
[X] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily. I
[ ] I wish my hair was a different colour.
[X] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[X] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[X] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[X] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[X] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life

[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[X] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[X] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[X] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.


[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job. I'm only hoping for this summer!
[ ] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[X] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honour Roll.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class. Amazing....
[X] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.


[X] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[X] I've glued my hand to something.
[X] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[X] I've had my pants rip in public.


[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[X] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[X] I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.


[X] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[X] I've been on a plane.
[X] I've been to Canada.
[X] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.


[X] I've gotten lost in my city.
[X] I've seen a shooting star.
[X] I've wished on a shooting star.
[X] I've seen a meteor shower.
[X] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[X] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[X] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[X] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[X] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[X] I've seen the Northern Lights
[X] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[X] I've played chicken.
[X] I've played a prank on someone.
[X] I've ridden in a taxi.
[X] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[X] I've eaten Sushi.
[X] I've been snowboarding.


[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[X] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[X] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of commitment.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[X] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[X] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[X] I've kept something from a past relationship.


[X] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.(if brody dalle and ryan donelly count)
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I love to flirt.
[X] I've been kissed in the rain.
[X] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.


[ ] I am a terrible liar.
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[X] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am/have keeping/kept a secret.
[ ] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[X] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[X] I've witnessed a crime
[X] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[X] I've shoplifted.


[X] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[X] I've passed out from drinking.
[X] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I smoke.
[X] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I'm a stoner
[ ] I've snorted cocaine.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[X] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done a hard drug.
[X] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[X] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.

Depression and Self-harm

[X] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[X] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[X] I'm anorexic or bulimic.(was)
[X] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[X] I've woken up crying.
[X] I've cried myself to sleep.
[X] I see a therapist.

Death and Suicide

[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[X] I've seen someone dying.
[X] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[X] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[X] I've planned my own suicide.
[X] I've attempted suicide.
[X] I've written a eulogy for myself.


[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[X] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[X] I own something from Hot Topic.(sadly)
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on E-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Political/Social Attitudes

[ ] In general, I don't like people
[ ] I'm very outgoing.
[X] I listen to political music.
[X] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[X] I'm liberal.
[X] I don't like Bush because he is dumb.
[X] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I'm religious.
[x] I dress fairly modestly.
[ ] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."


[x] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily
[X] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[X] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[X] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[X] I paid for my cell phone ring tone(s).
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have/had "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I like being neat
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CDs in a day.
[X] I bake well.
[ ] My favourite colour is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[X] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[X] I know how to shoot a gun.
[X] I am in love with love.
[X] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.(once for a myspace name.)
[X] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[XXXXXXXX] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games.
[X] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[X] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[x] My answers are totally honest.
10 are coming out with their hands in the air!][ how punk rock is that?

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