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eight-12-oheight [12 Aug 2008|06:03pm]
I would like to take a second to tell you all that life is pretty much a downward spiral of shit. it just gets deeper and deeper. My job is about to drive me insane.. as well as my grandmother. i lvoe her to death but sometimes i wish shed shut up. im doing the best i can. someone shoot me. I need my own space.. i need a better job so i can get a house. someone giv eme 2 million dollars please. ill do your laundry for the rest of your life. thnx. 

I love the way people are like goo dmorning kandace how are you today.. blah blah im worried blah blah.. i love u... and then talk shit behind their back. esp when they are your boss. ill kill that bitch. plz report me. 
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omg [03 Aug 2008|06:23pm]
BREAKING DAWN WAS AMAZING!!!!! dfjsfkahsdylfgsdgafdgfadvabgfgafgfagf
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book [29 Jul 2008|01:04am]
Im about to try to finish lullaby bc now im awake.. friday breaking dawn comes out.. can we talk about whos exctied?? omg.. if edward and bella dont end up together.. im going to hurt someone i swear! 
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so i suck at life [29 Jul 2008|12:52am]
I was suppose to go on this date.. so i told my grandma id get the kids in bed first.. and i have to lay down with my oldest son to get him to sleep... and i fell asleep. when i woke up i had like 6 missed calls and 5 text messages... so yeah.. no date for me. hopefully my grandma will watch the kids tom so ican go see him. I really like this guy... cant put my finger on it.
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seven twenty-7 ooohhh-8 [27 Jul 2008|05:15pm]

I think I feel happier and more alive than I have in awhile... and on the same hand i have no idea how to date with kids.. how the fuck do i do that.. someone explain please im lost. i cant take them on every date.. but i cant leave them with a babysitter allll the time. has anyone ever experienced this? im lost and need help. tell me what to do

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[24 Jan 2006|05:47pm]
I'm pregnant AGAIN!
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[27 Dec 2005|10:21pm]
gage started sititng up by himself yesterday... here are some pics.. sorry i dont update alot but im working NONSTOP now so... yeah...

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and in his new big boy carseat..

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[03 Dec 2005|07:26am]
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[30 Nov 2005|06:17am]
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[17 Nov 2005|09:30am]
so gage is going into a regular carseat within the next week... hes getting so big.. too big for a carrier... my baby... is 4 months and 2 days!!!! he will be 18 weeks tommorow.. 18 weeks.. wow!!!!! its crazy. hes growing so fast.. rolling over all the time.. even though ive only seen it once.. he waits until im not looking.. or hes in his bed.... he thinks its funny.. hes also at the.. always wanting to press his feet down and lift his butt up while on his back phase... yeah.. not so fun when im trying to feed him. haha... but hes so precious.. im not sure what id do without him.. ive put in application after application... so hopefully ill have a job soon.. roland went to work for my step-dad painting.. he's gonna be making more money there... we have to get started on christmas presents.. someone gave rolands mom and excercauser... so im cleaning it up right now for gage... i was gonna get him one for christmas.. buti dont have to now... i have soo much to do today.. cleaning wise.. its not even funny... gage is laying down now... he was so sleepy... he is growing up so fast... i cant wait to show yall some pictures.. but my digi isnt running right now.. gotta ge a new battery and memory card then its on!!! but ima go get soem stuff done.. <3

p.s. my friend is 16 and just found out shes pregnant.. her mom tried begging her to have an abortion... but melinda wants to keep the baby so she is going to... but her mom is giving her until tomm to think about it.. her mind isnt changing.. i know she can take care of the baby.. she acts 23 not 16.. shes so responsible... and ima help as much as i can... so im going to be an aunt.. 2 times within 2 months... bc her sister is having her 2nd baby(she jsut had one in june of this year) around the same time melinda is having hers! im so excited... ok im leavig for real this time <3
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[17 Nov 2005|09:15am]
name:: KanDace
birthdate:: 02/08/1987
age with first child?:: 18
how many kids so far?:: one
do you want to have more?:: yes
first child's birthday:: 07/15/2005
still with the father?:: no.. but im with his daddy :)
what is your parents' reaction?:: supportive and happy
how far along are you when you knew?:: 16 days
did you have morning sickness?:: nope
multiple birth?:: no
how long was labor?:: 10 hours.. well 3 months actually... but i was in the hospital 10 hours trying to have him on the 15th
kid/s' name/s:: Steven Gage.. We call him gage
their age/s now:: 4 months and 2 days
first word:: again 4 months and 2 days
age when you got pregnant?:: 17
his/her favorite bedtime story?:: n/a
his/her favorite lullaby?:: i lay him down and he talks hisself to sleep
pro-life or pro-choice?:: Pro-life
who does your baby look like... you or dad?:: my family
how did you get pregnant?:: well let me tell you about the birds and the bee's.
any plans of getting hitched?:: yes. very soon in fact... within the next few months hopefully
bedtime?:: bedtime is inbetween 630-730
breastfeed?:: i did and i loved it.. but i got sick and put in the hospital and had to stop.. I HATE FORMULA
what did you crave?:: crushed ice... allllll the time.. and chick fil a
how big did you get?:: i gained 29 lbs.. i was 146 when i had gage... he was 6 lbs 10 oz at birth.
message to all moms-to-be:: take it easy and dont stress as much...
message to all moms:: dont listen to what everyone else says.. raise your baby the way you see fit. even if its your first.. because its your baby and you know whats best for them
message to all bashers:: i have no idea what this means.. what are they bashing?
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[05 Nov 2005|08:22pm]
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my little man is getting so big!!!
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not sure what we are going to do [02 Nov 2005|08:15pm]
I'm not sure what we are going to do... Roland and his job departed.. bc he was sooo sick he couldnt work and his boss didnt like it so now neither of us have a job.. so im trying to find one .. im going to try to get a job at raising canes... anything is better than nothing right now... everytime i look at gage and think about having no money i freak out.. i will not have it.. i brought him into this world and i will make sure he has everything he needs.. and then some... plus christmas is around the corner... so we need to get stuff in order anyway... i hope we both find jobs soon... gage has enough diapers for like 2 weeks right now... after that i better have ajob or some shit.. melinda went to get me the application for raising cane's tonight and roland is bringing it home with him from pool league... so cross your fingers

in other news... i saw gage roll over finally.. he is getting so big... i mean big.. i have to get new batterys and a new memory card for my camera so i can take pictures.. im dieing not being able to show yall him everyday... hes so freaking cute.. i could eat him... when he smiles i think of how unique he is... and precious and if anyone ever tried to hurt him id have them torchered for at least 35 years... everyday... i hate to be the girl that breaks his heart the first time... i might go crazy.. better hope im a little more sane then than i am now..

i wish child support would send me something! it would be nice.. go ahead take the dna test and make his sorry ass send me some money... gage is about ot be 4 months old.. and hes never seen him or wanted to see him. i dare him to take me to court for visitation. DARE HIM!!! Got gag'es pictures back that we had done and they are adorable.. spent 235 on them well my grandma did... i want to get pictures of me gage bailee and roland done.. and gage amber and bailee...

took bailee and amber trick or treating.. they were so cute.. bailee was a cow and amber was a witch... everyone would say hey little cow and amber would go "her name is bailee" it was soo cute.. i love her.. for those of u who dont know.. amber is my 3 year old cousin who knows as much as 8 years olds... seriously.

let me go put the clothes in the dryer.. <3
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[24 Oct 2005|08:15pm]
gages butt rolled over today... and i didnt see it! i layed him on his stomach came back and he was on his back.. i was so mad and he wouldnt do it again... it sucked! grrr... im going to catch him before its all said and done... i cant believe he rolled over.. my baby is getting so big... he is 3 months old.. teething.. eats solid food,, trys to crawl,, rolled over... been scooting since he was itty bitty... i remember when i broughthim home from the hospital he was so small... now hes so heavy carrying his carrier and him sucks.. im about to move him up to a regular car seat.. i dont like this shit one bit.. i want my little baby back... i love watching him grow and learn new things.. and seeing the twinkle in his eye when he sees me bc he knows im his mama.. and the way he follows roland around the room waiting for him to come pick him up... how much love i can feel coming from him and how i see him grow and develop with each passing day... but i stillknow that in just a few days he is going to be running around.. and holding a sippy cup.. and using the potty.. he wont need me anymore... and i dont like that idea... getting up every morning looking at his little face starring back at me knowing he needs me makes me feel like i finally have a reason to get out of bed. im not only cooking and cleaning and taking care of roland but a little life i brought into this world.. that noone else in this world could have created... bc every little bit of his dna had something to do with me. i had my hands all in that... i worry that i will teach him something bad and it will come back to bite me in the butt when hes older... i just hope i can be the best mom possible.. and that he doesnt grow to hate me. ahh.... my baby rolled over!!!!
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[20 Sep 2005|10:07pm]
had gages 2 month check up monday.. he weighs 11 lbs 9 oz... and he 22.75 in long.. hes getting so big... i want to cry everyday i see him... ahh... hes such a happy baby.. and that makes me happy... roland said the best thign to me ever this weekend...

background : when he hits me in my boobies more than 2 times i hit him in the penis.. not hard but i do... bc it hurts me too.. haha

so we were going down the road and he hit me in the boob like 4 times so i went to hit him in the penis he put his hand over it and i hit his hand.. and "he said u kno that will give me testicular cancer".. and i said "and u hittin me in the boobs will give me breast cancer.. and it runs in my family".. and he said "go ahead and get it out the way" and i said "what are you gonna do if i go bald from chemo" and he said "if u go bald ill shave my head with you" and looke dme straight in the eye when he said it so i know he was sencere... i cried.. it was the cutest thing id ever heard... i wanted to marry him right there going down the road... ahh i love him so much. haha...

saw some frend i hadnt saw in probably a 2 years... finally got my license.. for those of u who dont kno.. i couldnt get my license until i turned 18.. then i was in preterm labor and in and out of the hospital so i missed my apt.. and my apt today i got them.. so glad thats out of the way.. drove on the interstate for the first time today... with gage and my little cousin in the car... so that went well.. so thats good... had chic fil a and the bitch didnt give me my honey roasted bar b que sauce grrrr... after iasked for it.. so i had to eat them without it.. grrrrrrr not good.... gage's formula is changin back to prosobee.. so thats nice... he spits up alot on alimentum... hypo-allergenic my ass.... prosobee is better... so back to that...

my ex boyfriend told me he wanted me back but didnt want to mess anything up btn me and roland... so i had to break it down for him that he is my ex... therefore he is messing nothing up btn me n roland.. bc i love him.. but id love to continue to hang out with him on ocassion hes always been a big part of my life... and i like hanging out with him... but if he says some shit like that again.. ill have to cut all ties.... bc roland means the world to me. but im going to go look at some other things since gage is sleeping. <3
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