||[Dec. 10th, 2005|12:37 am]
If anybody has advice please give it to me. I dont know what to do anymore. I feel immature talking like its the worst thing in the world. but it is the worst thing thats ever happened to me at least. and i dont know how to deal with stuff. i dont wanna talk to anybody other than a few select people because alls they seem to care about is sex, drugs, alcohol, whatever. and the people that i do talk to about it seem to think otherwise than what they tell me. so im fucked out of friends. my parents are the problem themselves. so fuck them. a counselor is out of the question because a "counselor" figure that my mom talks to tried to persuade her that im a bad kid and i have run of the household. that whole church option is hard because thats pulling faith out of thin air. and im not good at magic. what else do i do? one portion of my life is going to get fucked over so which do i pick?|
family, school/work , friends
family- they're going to still be there in 10 years.
school/work- that determines my future. and i dont have a future right now.
friends- quality friends seem to be deminishing.
i dont have a best friend anymore.
one told me that im a bad person.
the other one says im a bad person behind my back (and im not complaining about the behind my back) but tells me otherwise.
and the last one i've lost touch with.
so what else is there to lose?