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allie-son [11 Jul 2007|10:32pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

allie told me to start writing in here so she knew what was going on in arizona.

i used to love writing in this thing, but i'm not sure i have the confidence to let me lifeback onto the internet.

but for my poly-wog, ill do anything. i'm hopefully moving out soon...like within the next week.


me & my babyyyyyyyyyy




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[08 Jul 2006|02:14am]
[ mood | irate ]

i don't want to love him anymore. who said that love was worth the pain and struggle? i just wish i could hate him. i want to hate him so much. i hate him so much but i love him so fucking much. i don't want to fell this pain again. ever again. i don't want to be in love anymore. and this situation will make me never want to start another goddamn relationship because it's just so hard.

love  (lv) n.


  1. A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
  2. A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.

i never knew what love was. and now i know what it feels like. and now i remember how it was when i didn't have it. i wish i had fallen in love when i was 20 instead of 16. why doesn't he care? why, when we spent so much time together. called eachother, spent ever waking moment together, knew everything about each other would he not want to fix it? what did i do?! i literally gave this kid everything i had. my boy my soul and my heart. he just walked all over it. killed me and it's all my life revolves around. i try to do so much to get him out of my head but it just never happens. i'm sure he never thinks of me because he just doesn't have a goddamn conscience. sometimes i wish for the worst to happen to me(not suicide dumbasses) just that i would get sick or get hospitalized for something. and see if he would show up with flowers and tell me he was sorry for ever hurting me and that he loved me. but it won't happen. i want to hate him so bad, i really do. i hate him, and i hate was he does to me. why doesn't he love me? WHY? was is so great about tiffany and all those girls WHAT what what.

i don't want to love you anymore. i don't. i wish i could just float off to a different state and never hear from you again because you don't love me. and i love you. i love you.

i just want him to love me, and be with me. like it was. we were so good together. i gave him everything and loved him with every fiber of my being. now im in therapy, doing drugs, smoking, drinking and im on medications. i'm a fucking trainwreck and he doesn't care.

i hate you if you dont love me. LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME

how can i live without you, i want to know. how do i breathe without you if you ever go...how do i ever, ever survive?




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so begins the end of my life [26 May 2006|11:04am]
[ mood | unconfortably numb.. ]

wow. the last time i wrote in this was september. it makes me unbelievably sad to think of that time period. i had such an amazing life. i had a boyfriend, who i loved with all my heart, i had good grades in school, and i had friends.

well...now all i have is friends. which all graduated last night. depressing.. i didn't even get to see drew, which made me sad. we kind of haven't been talking the past few days. i think i have confused him, oh well, just another thing to add to my list.
,
i haven't been this, upset in my life. i have lost someone who was everything to me. literally everything. i don't know how i can live without him, but i am. we really were happy. just we had some problems. it's funny to think that we weren't meant to be together. he fucked me over. big time. he let down big time. i don't know how i could ever forgive him unless he fucking called me or fucking talked to me. but of course not cause he's obsessed with this extremely skinny girl tiffany. she fucked me over. for those of you who don't know chris and her went to mexico together and i emailed her before  she went and explained my situation to her about how i know what happens in mexico and that i loved christopher and i dont want anything to happen between them and then she emailed me back and said she would never do that to anyone because she knows how it feels. but just to add to my luck, they fucked each other, in the rain and that ended my life of happiness. i don't think i have ever felt that much pain in my life, and still to this day, 3 months later, i cry and cry because i never thought that someone who claimed to love me would hurt me like that. i never thought in a million years my boyfriend, the one who i had been with for over a year would hurt me. would literally stab my heart with such pain as he did. i felt my life crash down and all i wanted to do was die. i swear to you, i hope none of you ever feel the way i did because it will literally tear you apart for so long as it has me. no matter what i try to do to get him out of my head it just won't work. this time last year, i was running to him in the feild to congradulate my loving boyfriend. it unbelievably how alone one person can feel surround by a thousand in a football stadium. i tried so hard to be happy for billy and all my graduating friends, but i just couldn't. i tried and tried but all i wanted to do was cry. everytime i felt a tear i would pull down my sunglasses and buck it up, even at 12 o clock at night. i felt so bad, and all i wanted to do was go home. but i didn't, i stayed out for them. to be there for them, probably the last night we would all be together.

all i want is christopher, my best friend back. i want him to give up this infatuation he has with tiffany, and come home to the one who loves him. and the one who cared about him for so long. im so scared for this summer. today begins my 3 months of loneliness and depression. not because i have no friends, because i do. but because everyday last summer i had someone to watch dawsons creek with me and see every morning to greet me and tell me they loved me. now all i have in dawsons creek by my self in my room. im sure he'll go to the lake with her now and go to sunsplash and salt river tubing. why does he need me now? he's got her.

well christopher, i hope she's a good fuck because i would never ever give up someone who loved me.i loved you, i gave you everything. i really did. i gave you every part of my heart and soul and you threw it on the ground and let her walk all over it.

i thought you were better than just a face in the crowd. i thought you ha some integrity, some sort of being because of what you had been through...and you were so good to me up until the day before my starring in the spring play. 

i'm still waiting for you to stop running for once like you always do, and show up at my door with roses begging for my friendship.

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[18 Sep 2005|04:21pm]
i love you so much.

stop doing this to me.
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[23 Aug 2005|07:20pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

I don't think anyone hates one person as much as i hate Kristi Parker. I seriously, wouldn't give one god damn bit if she died. I can't stand her. Today at school, she looked like 12 years old, she looks like shit with bangs. Ugh and I can't believe she went over to Chris' house at 1:00 in the morning. God shes such an inconsiderate bitch. Ugh! I love when she calls while hes with me cause ill answer it. Ugh what a bitch. I hate her. But anywho.

I LOVE MY CHRISTOPHER AND 8 MONTHS IS 9 DAYS AWAY. not bad for my first relationship eh? Thats longer than previous girlfriends if you know what i'm saying..haha bitch.

I LOVE MY BABY.

I HATE HER.

:]

Comment if you love me.

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[28 Jul 2005|06:35pm]
[ mood | morose ]

I'm so pissed off. I guess letting someone down is never going to get old. So i'm taking care of melissa's pets while shes gone. So i'm in her room, looking for cap litter box cause no one showed me where it was. So i'm lookin through melissas closet hopin to find some kitty litter. Little did i know that i would find the 98 dollar gypsy dress my mom bought her from the renissance festival balled up in a bag. :/ kind of depressing. So i dont find it, i move on into krsiten's closet where there i find almost every shot glass i've ever bought melissa. lame. I mean its like heart breaking to see. Just upsetting i guess. Well..im going to go do something to make me happier..like packing to leave.

Bye.

Welcome home Billy. We missed you.

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Oh diamonds are a girls best friend. [06 Jul 2005|10:44pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

 

 

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will he call? [24 May 2005|08:49pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

my life this year has changed dramatically. I don't think i've changed as a person or anything. I just know that my lifestyle has definitly improved. I used to be this little emo kid who hated life and now i have my christopher to make everything go away. I've realized that you dont need to keep up the same old ways of your friendships, because they can still be friendships, just in a different way. Alot of my friends have changed this year. For instance..Justin, John and James(Big). (haha all J's.) I find that John and Justin are fine when they are alone, but when they are both together they are just big assholes and I don't know why that started, but still its hard to deal with in 7th hour. Big james used to be this cute teddy bear with highwaters and a big brain but now he's just another face in the crowd..all the same as everyone else...but still a big brain. I'm not saying that it's bad how he changed, just his uniqueness was welcoming.

I've waited all my life to find someone...and I finally have. His name is...Christopher Ray George and he's my little muffin. But I dont feel like talking about him today cause everyone knows how much I care about him and how cute he is. :]

So... I saw star wars and kingdom of heaven. Kingdom of heaven was so much better than Starwar(Dont yell at me...) star wars was so cheesemo and lame ass. Anakan was like 'I hate you!" and it was so irrelivant! Ugh..I was so disappointed. The first was was better and the the originals. Don't shoot me. It was so draggy in the begining with all the boring saber fights...shoo shoo.lame. Of god I loved Kingdom of Heaven it was so good and for once, Orlando Bloom did an awesome job and wasn't a coward! I absolutely loved this movie. i suggest for everyone to see it.

Dos more days. I'm so excited. Hopefully I get a good grade on my math final tomorrow. :] Yey. Well I'm off. Nice boring post eh? Cya around kids.

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[06 May 2005|11:30pm]
[ mood | grumpy ]

I love you baby. I know you dont do anything to upset me on purpose. I LOVE YOU.

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[20 Apr 2005|09:08pm]
[ mood | cold ]

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<3 I love you baby.

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theres a hole in the trust that we mapped out.. [18 Apr 2005|09:14pm]
[ mood | sick ]

So. What to write in here. I used to use this thing as a vent when I was frustrated...now lately I'm not frustrated. Hah. So prom was this past Saturday. I don't think it could've been better. I loved every minute of it..well besides that my date was a wee bit late...lol I forgive him though. I'll post pictures at the end of this for you people. Anyways, my whole house is full of sick people. We all have these headcolds and today was one of the worst days ever. I had the worst sinus headache, runny nose, coughing, and sneezing thing. Ugh. It was horrible. Not to mention I thought I had lost my class ring so I spent all of 7th hour looking everywhere for it, only to find out Chris had it. I was crying too. :[ I was really scared what my parents would do. I need to send out this package that i have here waiting, but I've been procastinating. I miss doing the artistic things I used to do all the time. I miss painting, drawing, reading and playing my Xbox. I don't really have time, nor do I make 'Amy' time. I love being around Chris and when I'm home while he's at work, I'm either eating, sleeping or homework and I just don't have time to do the fun stuff. Nor the important things. My room hasn't been clean in forever and I have no clothes. I feel so dirty when I come out of my room. Ew. I can't wait till this summer. I think it will be better than the last. I can't wait till my Billycakes comes down here. :] yay yay.

Hmm I stole this from Eivy. It looked fun.

() smoked a cigar
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
() crashed a friend's car
() stolen a car
() been in love
() been dumped
() shoplifted
() been fired
() been in a fist fight
() snuck out of your parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
() been arrested
() made out with a stranger
() gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
() had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
() slept with a co-worker
() seen someone die
(x) been to Canada(AND IM DAMN PROUD)
() been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
() thrown up in a bar
() purposely set a part of yourself on fire
() eaten Sushi
() been snowboarding
() been moshing at a concert
() been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
() made a snow angel
() had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
() gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) smoked a cigarette
() gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
() used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
() felt an earthquake
() touched a snake(GROSS)
(x) slept beneath the stars (Lake Powellllll)
(x) been tickled (Like hell :[ )
(x) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
() petted a reindeer/goat
() won a contest
(x) run a red light(HAHAH I GOT YELLED AT)
() been suspended from school
(x) been in a car accident
(x) had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
() eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
() danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
() witnessed a crime
() pole danced (remember those days katie?)
() questioned your heart
() been obsessed with post-it notes
()squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
() swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
() sung karaoke
() paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't (IF YOU ONLY KNEW...)
() made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
() caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
() been kissed under a mistletoe
() watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
() made a bonfire on the beach
() crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating
() had a wish come true
() humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
() jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed penis in class ( AND I LOVE IT)
() ate dog/cat food
() told a complete stranger you loved them
() kissed a mirror
(xxx) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
(x) had a dream that you married someone
() glued your hand to something
() got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
() kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
() been a cheerleader
() sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
() done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
(1/2) didn’t take a shower for a week( it was close..)
() pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
() had a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
() believe in ghosts
() have more then 30 pairs of shoes
() worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
() gone streaking
(x) played ding-dong-ditch
() played chicken
(x) pushed into a pool with all your clothes on (hmm chris you butt)
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
() caught a fish then ate it
()made porn
()caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
() mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you (Everytime melissa gets the chance..lol)
(x) cheated on a test
(x) have a Britney Spears CD (like 3...)
(x) forgotten someone’s name
(x) slept naked
() French braided someone’s hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
() been threatened 2 b kicked out of ur house(whats with the grammer...)
() been kicked out your house?

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[07 Apr 2005|05:13pm]
[ mood | creative ]

"I'm falling in love with you, balloons or no balloons. And it's time I forget the past and just learn to love what i have. and i love waking up to your laugh...oh."

That song is amazing. Yay. Dance concert tonight with melisskiss.

bbye.

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[03 Apr 2005|09:25pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I miss my mommy.

& she's only been gone a day. She left me a message today while I was sleeping.

"Hey Amy. It's mom. I thought I'd just call you because the ship is moving and we're slowly moving to sea. I love you and I hope everything is going good. Give the puppies kisses for me. I love you baby and I miss you. I'll try calling back later be sure to be home tomorrow so we can call you. I love you."

:'[. She called back and I woke up and talked to her. I think she was a little tipsy. Every other word was I love you. I miss her..Today I hungout with christopher...all day pretty much. It was tres fun. I love you baby.

g'night fags.


PS. IT WAS FUCKING HILARIOUS TODAY ME AND CHRIS WENT TO THE PARK AND KRISTI AND RAMOND WERE SITTING RIGHT NEAR CHRIS' HOUSE. I THOUGHT IT WAS FUCKING FUNNY AS FUCK. WHAT A OCD-er. lmfao.
jk...not.

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[02 Apr 2005|06:08pm]
Half the country thinks that there is going to be an apocalypse when the popo dies.


for those of you who dont know...

a·poc·a·lypse N.

Great or total devastation; doom: the apocalypse of nuclear war.
A prophetic disclosure; a revelation.

a cosmic cataclysm(A violent upheaval that causes great destruction or brings about a fundamental change.) in which God destroys the ruling powers of evil



HAHAH DAMN JESUS LOVING HIPPIES. STFU.

There was this one guy who predicted WW1 WW2 & 911 and he said that the world was going to end on Good Friday of this year. HAHAHAH I hate people.

Im going to chillaz with meliss tonight yayyyy
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[31 Mar 2005|08:19pm]
[ mood | amused ]

HAPPY FUCKING THREE MONTHS BABY.
(THE LAST THREE HAVE BEEN AWESOME IM SURE THE FOURTH IS BETTER :])

YAY FOR CAMPING.


I LOVE YOU.

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[30 Mar 2005|06:12pm]
I'm sad. I don't get to go to Jeremys show tonight.

My ride didn't call ahead...so i figured we werent going. So now i'm stuck at home. Bored.


I love you christopher.
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[28 Mar 2005|08:43pm]
[ mood | calm ]

I love how my baby can cheer me up with a just a phone call.

Thanks babe.

I LOVETH YOU. RAWRRRR


Fuck that biatch! ( You know who I'm talking about :] )

My borther is being extremely rude lately. When my parents leave I'm taking the cleaver in my pantry downstairs and slitting his throw in 3 inch long cuts along his neck until he tells me he wont hurt me anymore.


You dont understand unless you live where I live. Don't judge.

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[23 Mar 2005|07:25pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

I find it amazing that all day I think of things to write in here then once i begin writing I can't think of anyhing at all! Oh well. I can always just randomly type things that enter into my 3.8 gpa brain of mine and hope for the best right? Haha. I'm so excited for next year(school). I have only 2 core classes. I'm taking AP AZ History(which is kinda scary) for A hour, none the less. And English III..not ap or honors cause I'm retarded. Har har. Anyways, then i'm taking Int. Theatre and Concert Choir/Adv. Womens Vocals. I'm not sure though. Then for the last half of the day its off to EVIT I go to take Video Productions. IM SO EXCITED. Yippie Skippie. I've been sitting in my god forsaken room since 4:30. Chris had to take me home early cause he had work :[ makes me sad panda. He likes his work so whatever makes him happy i guess. Tomorrow I'm going shopping for a Prom Dress :] I so excited. :] Christopher asked me today to prom cause he said he couldn't think of a cute way of asking me. I said that it was okay and OF COURSE i'd go with him. Duh! Who would say no to prom with your boyfriend? Not me.

Last night me and chris were talking on the phone with Curtis. I miss talking to that kid. I've never met him before but i started 3 way on the phone with them and hes a really cool guy. I guess hes coming down to visit people down here before he leaves for california. So i hope i get to meet him then. That'd be cool. I have to finish reading my goddamn book by friday. I have about 100 pages left, which could take me anywhere from an hour to like 4 hours, depending on if i have to stop or if i get distracted which would suck immensly.

My billster came to school this morning. I saw him from across the hall and i ran and gave him a hug. hopefully we'll get to hangout this weekend. i'd feel really bad if he came here for this whole week and i didn't get to hangout with him for at least 1 day. I loveth my billster my billycakes.<3<3<3. Wow i didn't realize that i had typed this much. Well i'm going to make a new layout for this beast and then call it quits cause ive been on the computer all day (downloading porn of course..JK) and i'm sick of it. Plus i'm burning my legs.

Adios Amigos.

Je t'aime. Vous êtes christophe si tres tresmignon.

Qu'est-ce que tu aimes faire apres l'ecole?
(for you retards thats, "I love you. Christopher you are very very cute. What do you like to do after school?")

I'm surprised I remember things like that from freshman year.

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[21 Mar 2005|08:06pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

Stop eavesdropping!!!



I LOVE YOU MY TOPHER

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I hate when people (myself included) overreact. [20 Mar 2005|02:20pm]
[ mood | predatory ]

I have now thus returned from a 3 day 'hell vacation'. I went to Lake Powell or Page and cleaned our house boat. It was ridiculous cause I had to be in the car for four hours and do nothing for 2 days. Then return to the car for four hours.

I heard from a phone call last night that someone (who is to remain unnamed cause I still love her) showed Kristi my "immature"post about her. She told Chris that she thought it was 'immature'. Technically it was but I'm sure everyone gets to the point where they just write whatever pops into their heads right? I'd like to make this clear (since ive had 3 days to sit and think about everything you could possibly imagine) I dont hate kristi. I just 'dislike' things she does and it gives her a bad impression towards me so to speak. I really don't like the fact that she shows up at random times at Chris' house, like say 1:30 in the morning. Is that weird to anyone else? Am I the only one who thinks this way? I know nothings going on or anything and I trust Chris. Eh. Chris and Kristi hungout on Saturday before he had work. I guess that went okay, at least thats what he told me. I don't mind at all. I thought I would literally kill myself if they hungout. But i realized that its cool with me...during the day. It really bothered me that they hung out after work...at like 10-12 i guess?? They were originally going to go to a movie but I guess they decided to hangout in an building that hadn't been fully built yet...why? I haven't the slightest idea. But whatever floats their boat. I dont get jealous easily except on certain things. So yeah. I got a little pissed last night.

Oh well. I'll get over it. New lesson for Amy "Never trustfully in people whom you don't know about. You'll never know when someone you confide in will go behind your back and tell the enemy what you speak of them"

It's quite disappointing. =/

Je t'aime, Christopher.

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