|| almost emotionally devistated
i went to battle of the bands..i saw the best band ever, -courtesy of you- and i got a pin and a sticker, after that my night went to shit. okay, to get what happened tonight, i have to take you all the way to friday-last night- okay, i asked chris-collins- to talk to me alone and he said sure and i told him i really liked him and he said back to me "im sorry, but right now, im not physically able to be in a relationship" and i said "i understand" and everything was kool-aid. now, tonight, i was sitting alone stareing at people when i saw chris with jennifer-or jessica[i keep forgetting her name]- and he was holding hands with her, sure that was fine, no big deal i always hold hopes hand. then, he kissed her, yah okay.. getting kinda rawr but it was just on the cheek, and on the head, and on the neck...i recive the same-cept not on the neck- then he started wipsering to her..secrets or..somehting else i duno..she giggled..yah thats fine, then he kissed her on the lips ever so beautifully...then i got so sad. i felt tears coming on and i tryed, honestly i tryed to stop them but i couldn't. so i sat there and cryed for like 30 mins, and i belive ALMOST EVERYONE i know came up to me and asked what was wrong-and no, i didn't tell them- besides chris and jennifer-or jessica..or what ever- and that really hurts. he lied to me. i hope he was just being flirty or something..or is she the one i was told about..with that BIG thing im not supposed to know about...i REALLY hope not oh my god i hope not.
anyways...this is to him-someone tell him or something-:
i'll wait until you're willing to listen, i won't say a word to you. i still like you, but it hurts..
why do they always make me cry?
btw i will be posting my new LJ morrow iight?